I cant feel my legs…. part 62939471761

Kelly Wood

I’m on bike now. And I cant feel my legs.

“And tha’ts all I have to say about tha’at”
**said in Forest Gump voice**

Well believe it or not, not many crazy things happened this week, so unfortunately for you I think I might actually right something spiritual….

please dont quit reading haha!

I hope you all enjoyed conference as much as I did! But I doubt that’s possible ha! This conference was so special to me because it was a.) The first time I think I’ve ever-literally-heard every word caused there wasnt any screaming or laughing or anything and b.) Cause it was the first time I went in with personal questions.
I feel weird talking about this but idk I am just gonna send it ha. For a while now I have been feeling super discouraged and inadequate in the things I felt like I should be doing. You know, like those dreams when youre in a giant race of some sort, running as hard as you can and not going anywhere. Its absolutely terrible😂.
But anyway, I wanted to know this conference, how on earth am I supposed to help others progress if I dont even feel like I can??
Well what do ya know, that got answered in about every talk I think.
I dont know if anyone else in here has ever or is feeling like their “spiritual/personal rut” is a canal, if so, I’d like to invite you to read Ether chapters 2 and 3, and also to go back and listen to L. Todd Budge’s talk during the Saturday afternoon session.
It was so cool the way he talked about the Jaredites making their boats. For me, I felt like I had built my boat out of faith, it was going great and then, just like the brother of Jared, it hit me that I wouldn’t be able breath… or see. And it was kind of an “Um God, excuse me but I did everything right-just like you told me- and now I cant breath, I cant see and now what in the heck am I supposed to do??” moment.
And just like a good Father does, he let me decide. He let me decide whether I was going to think my way out of it and ask for help or sit and pout till the rains come and I find myself still stuck with the stupid “dish”.
So instead, like the brother of Jared, I started to look for some dirty rocks. And trust me, it wasnt hard. I feel like finding my own dirty rocks is pretty darn easy but it’s the cleaning them off I have a hard time with. So I picked a few and started to scrub.
The first rock being my heart. I do not know how many rocks I can get clean enough for the Lord to touch and purify for my benefit but I know that first one this past week has been my heart. I know with out a doubt that this conference I saw the finger of the Lord come and touch my heart.
It’s real and it’s pure and I hope that everyone of you will understand exactly how that feels.
So I want to encourage each one of you to go rock pickin. I promise if you will start cleaning and scrubbing, no matter how much dirt you still have left on there, the Lord knows your intentions and CAN clean them.

” Behold, I am he who was prepared from the foundation of the world to redeem my people. Behold, I am Jesus Christ. I am the Father and the Son. In me shall all mankind have life, and that eternally, even they who shall believe on my name; and they shall become my sons and my daughters”

No doubt about it. God loves YOU.

Have the best week! Be safe!
Love, Ryenne

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Published by Kelly Wood

Small town girl. Lover of stories. Believer in God, family, America, and in finding beauty in both the past and the here and now. I grew up alongside my five siblings as our parents dreamed and worked and picked themselves up time and again while creating their small business . Interestingly, I married my high school sweetheart, who now co-owns his own small family business with his brother- the same business that he grew up in, working alongside his dad. We have five kids of our own (who are pretty cool, if I must say so myself), and both understand the grit and determination it takes to build our own dreams. I feel honored to share our story here and join my parents and brothers in their desire to create a welcoming, positive spot – where we can share stories and resources for those wanting to make memories with the people they love the most.

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